Deterioration of Memory
Destruction reveals the transience of human experience.
Organisms and structures break down over time, eventually decomposing into simpler forms. Later, these forms reorganize into something new. I find this idea comforting. I often think about my past experiences and memories that have built up throughout the years and influence who I am today, and how over time these memories change and deteriorate. There is an effort involved with retrieving those spaces, and in remembering, a transformation occurs.
I address this in my paintings by layering newspaper and paint, focusing on the structure and history contained in the text and images, and combining them with layers of color that both accentuate and hide the contents. I then cut through and scrape away the layers and reapply the scraps on top.
The pieces transform over time, creating a constant fluidity and conflict between the layers. They evoke a structural breakdown where my hand is seen in the process, connecting the past to the present. I try to create a sense of both natural or organic breakdown combined with deliberate, physical marks that both create and destroy the structure of the painting.
Making each piece is meditative and thoughtful, where I allow my hands to take over. I let go of the distinct need to think everything through, and allow myself to process events and memories through this process of layering and scraping away materials.